I have been holding a hand of cards so close because I think that they are a good hand but forgetting what that hand is or even the game I am playing. It is time for those cards to move away from my chest and it scares me. What if those cards are actually shit? What if I have been wasting my time and energy? What if they are as good as they get and they are not enough? What if I am playing the wrong game and the cards are meaningless? So I move them back to my chest even closer.
It is safer this way.
It is soul destroying.
I deserve more than this game, this illusion of safety.
I can’t even remember why I am playing it, but I feel like I have been told it is a good thing to play, to conform, to not stand out. But is it?
I don’t want to hold those cards anymore as they are an illusion that is keeping me stuck and stagnant and not doing the stuff I am meant to be doing. Those cards represent a standard that has been thrust upon me when I never wanted to play the game. It does not suit me, my talents, my gifts, the things I love and value.
Can I stop playing? Am I allowed to stop and move onto something meaningful to me?
It is scary to do something new and different. Do I have the courage?
Then I remember.
I am loved. I am powerful. I am supported. The Universe always has my back. My differences are my strengths.
I have done things differently before and it was amazing. This fear is an illusion and it can’t actually kill me. I thank the fear for doing it’s job of keeping me safe, but I remind fear that I am the one living this life and I choose greater, to be seen, to be heard to be me, to be excited about what is next. So I lift those cards away, having faith that I am taken care of. I don’t look at the cards, knowing that they are not what I want or need or even exist.
I realise as my hands are now free that I have not been able to receive anything new, because my hands have been taken up with an ideal that is less than I deserve. Those hands have been covering my heart out of protection, but I want to feel. I want to connect to that magical amazing place within. This is my power. This is my beauty. This is amazing.
I can start to feel the energy and abundance start to flow again.
Oh I remember this.
I am loved. I am loving.
No fear. Courage and a commitment to myself. I am worthy, even if sometimes I forget how extraordinary I am. It is time to remember. Time to bank myself. I allow. I receive. I accept. I am grateful. I am magnificent and so are you.